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Jenna Newell Hiott's avatar

Oh, Julie, thank you so much for sharing your selkie dream! It makes me think, too, about the oceans within us...the bodies of water contained in our own human-shaped skin. And the pillars that formed (in your dream) are rigid structures that keep us locked in a single form, when really, our oceans are meant to be ever shifting. There's so much here to ponder! The story of the selkie is so heartbreaking. In some ways, it echoes life itself. We learn to love these limited experiences while there's always that tugging feeling that our true belonging is elsewhere. I loved this post so much! Thank you!

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Julie Schmidt's avatar

Jenna, yes I love the "oceans within us!" I feel this too. There is fluidity in that. I feel comfortable in my own skin when I can flow. Even when it naturally ebbs. However as in my dream the outer influences of our human effect on the earth was palpable, one of getting in the way, being a an obstruction. Inviting me to stay rooted in natures waters and soils, to be connected, relational with life, with her. To feel the grief that naturally arises because of all the desecration. Some rigid structures I do create myself, inviting me to understanding these blockades so I can swim around them and not get sucked into them. Feels like what I am doing now. Living life in relationship, as a belonging to life and to nature. Letting the "feeling comfortable in my own skin" be the gauge.

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D. C. Wilkinson's avatar

I loved reading this. It reminded me of one of my rather visceral suspicions: we're very much like dolphins, diving in and out of eternal, infinite oceans, our smooth skin constantly flaking and peeling as new skin cells replace old cells. We never stop transforming ourselves.

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Julie Schmidt's avatar

Thank you D.C.! That has been my experience as well, "we never stop transforming ourselves."

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Louise Hallam's avatar

I love this so much Julie, it speaks of the freedom of the ocean, but also the sadness of having that freedom taken away. A time when it will be restored completely and we can freely shapeshift without the fear of capture. I resonate with that feeling of not being comfortable in your skin, I’ve always had a constant battle with my weight and how that makes me feel. I feel like it’s all coming to the surface to heal, so that I can grow into my crone role with ease and grace. Such a beautiful narrative to carry us through those changes.

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Julie Schmidt's avatar

Thank you Louise for your words here. And I can deeply relate. All that is unlike love, freedom, etc, does come to the surface to be healed. And that can feel really uncomfortable. Yet this to me feels more real and in my skin than if I were to take on pretentiousness, trying to be someone I am not. When I feel maligned that to me is true discomfort. Like as I wrote in this post, as a kid I became what my parents wanted me to be. Then I had to stuff myself to be able to fuel that persona.

And agree with, "so that I can grow into my crone role with ease and grace." YES the crone is sooo needed right now. Elder women of wisdom!

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Louise Hallam's avatar

YES to being who you want to be Julie, we’ve got this! 🙏💫

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Sam Corrie's avatar

Julie, I have tears in my eyes...I resonate with the Selkie story so much. I feel as though I am from the ocean and that eventually there I will return, yet now I am here upon this earth and here I am to be.

Did anyone take my skin from me? Or did I choose to be earthbound this time and learn from the land and in turn give the wisdom from the sea...

In honour of your story and the journey you have travelled to come home in your skin. Thank you for sharing that story and for sharing the story of your dream.

Much love xxx

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Julie Schmidt's avatar

Thanks Sam. Yes I resonate with what you said here. It is one thing to have your skin taken. And another to give it freely for wisdom teaching. Or to sacrifice it for something that has deep meaning. There have been times that I had to make decisions and changes that did not resonate with who and what I am. But, there was a greater purpose than my own needs. A sacrifice, a giving. This has a very powerful place too!

Sam, my ocean friend. It feels like you are here to impart the wisdom of the seas. Whale, dolphin, reef, water, flow wisdom. I read this right before I shared here...

"Pay attention humans...

Italian diver Enzo Maiorca while diving into Siracusa sea felt something patting him on the back. He turned around and saw a dolphin, which he understood that he did not want to play but express something. The dolphin dived and Enzo followed. At a depth of twelve meters trapped in a net there was another dolphin. After managing with his wife to release it, as the two dolphins emerged they emitted an almost human cry (this is how Maiorca described it). Dolphins can be held under water for up to ten minutes then drowned. The trapped dolphin was a female who soon gave birth. The male surrounded them and standing in front of Enzo touched his cheek (like a kiss), a gesture of gratitude. Enzo finished his speech by saying

′′Until man learns to respect and communicate with the animal world, he will never be able to know his true role on this Earth.′′" (and communicate with the oceans, my input)

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Sam Corrie's avatar

I am crying as I read this...my body is full of tingles. There are no words right now... just love and gratitude... thank you xxx

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Camilla Sanderson's avatar

Hi Julie, your post is beautiful. I want to share something from Eckhart Tolle about polarization that helped me a lot:

“When you are faced with challenge—you will not immediately react, there will be an ability to face someone/something, to give it attention, this is an aspect of awareness. Or even give attention to an arising thought—

Why are people so insane they don’t get vaccinated?

Why are people so insane to take the vaccines?

Instead of identifying with one or the other you can hold two seemingly conflicting thoughts.

Otherwise whoever holds an opposing thought becomes your enemy.

To hold the paradox is the sign of wisdom.

The ability to decide for yourself is there.

I looked at the situation, I gave it attention, including some information, what are the risks, very quietly you look at it. Finally I decided to get the vaccine. 2 of them, now they’re talking about a 3rd, I don’t know about that yet. I will look at it, and a decision will arise.

Some people have become contaminated by fear. Once its taken a hold of you, you lose awareness.

Without the underlying awareness you are at the mercy of toxic thoughts that act in your mind the same way that a virus acts in your body.” ✨🌟💖🙏

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Julie Schmidt's avatar

Yes I agree completely Camilla. Holding two conflicting thoughts, being with the paradox, standing at the threshold between opposites. This is the liminal to me. It is where I walk, or at least do my best to be there. And yes when I hold tight to opposing thoughts, I make the other into an enemy. And it is also possible to make a decision based on opposing thoughts without making the other an enemy. It is holding the decision loosely rather than holding tight. Challenging, yes. Possible? Yes. As ET said, it is a contamination of fear. Going down that rabbit hole is the problem.

Funny that ET talked about the vaccine here, I had that originally in my post but took it out. Interesting parallel.

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